I feel like I'm back at square one, I want to fall to pieces right now. I am in pain! I feel like everything is leaving, and I have no hope to grab onto this. I was hoping things would change, but nothing has gotten better, it hurts more now because they have the number and they won't call. I call all the time, but they are too busy for me, and it hurts! Then everything else feels like its falling apart. I'm trying so hard to deal with this, without worrying of the worse, but things just get worse, and I want it all to stop. Why tear this down on me? Why smack me in the face with all this pain. THIS IS UNFAIR! I hate this, I hate this, I truly hate everything in my life right now! FUCK IT ALL! emily~ someone IM me plzzzz on aim evilgothemily